Reflections in the Mirror

 

MONDAY, MARCH 29, 2010

Reflections in the Mirror

With all this good news in my life, I have been feeling good and happy the past couple of days. I will enjoy this time right now. I have been so homesick for Blake but have decided that the Lord can take much better care of him than I can, so I need to for now and let the Lord do his thing. In May, I will talk to him again and then turn him back to the Lord. Thank you, Tamy, for your Advice. It's a good thing I only had one son. The Lord knew it would be too hard for me to send them off for 2 years.

Have you ever looked at yourself in the mirror naked, like after you get out of the shower? Usually, I run into my closet and quickly get dressed, but today I stared at myself for 15 minutes; WOW, things have changed over the years. Are we as women ever 100% happy with our bodies? Even when I was running every day and exercising like a maniac, I was not satisfied with what my body looked like. But today, as I looked into my eyes, I saw a different woman who has endured many trials in her life that should count for some of those wrinkles I have on my face. I know a woman with much faith and love for her family and friends more than ever before. I love people I never would have given the time of day to before. Not because I didn't care for them but simply because I felt I didn't have time. I see an imperfect body, maybe even a little sick and frail, but inside that poor body, I see a stronger woman, willing to stand up for her beliefs at any cost, even if I'm the only one standing. Today, I can look past the imperfections and understand that imperfection is in all of us. The Lord does not expect us to be perfect. He expects us to come unto him and love one another. Interesting to me, since it is so hard to love what they see in the mirror staring back at them. I never thought I would love the woman staring back at me, but I do, even with my bald head and fair face, with no eyelashes or eyebrows. The past 8 months have brought to light a new perspective on life. Too bad I waited 47 years to come to a clear understanding of who I am. I wish I could talk to all young women and tell them don't wait for something tragic to happen in their life. Be faithful and strong now, come to see yourself like the Lord sees you- BEAUTIFUL- HE loves each one of us, and even though we all look different when we know who we are, we learn that in the Lord's eye, it does not matter, because we were created by him, and He is unconditional love.