Today is my Birthday

 

THURSDAY, JANUARY 14, 2010

Today is my Birthday

After Monday's chemo treatment, they told me that I may not feel the effects until Wednesday or Thursday and expect them to last through the weekend. Tuesday night, I started getting extreme back and leg aches. Also, my lower stomach is extremely painful, with sharp pains. Today I called my oncologist to find out if this is normal and if there is anything I can take to get some relief. I am now back on the pain medicine. The pain medicine makes me so tired, so I either live with the pain (kinda not an option) or take the pain medicine and sleep all day and night.

Today is my Birthday, and my wonderful friend Mysti Brown put together a girl's night for my close friends and me. I felt so bad to cancel, but I am not functional, and I have been in a fetal position for 2 days. I hope we can do the "girl's night" next week, and I need something to look forward to.
The woman in my ward made this quilt for my Birthday; I was asleep when Ruthanne VanWagoner and Lynette Peterson brought it over. I woke up feeling pain and just wanted to get some medicine and sleep. Eric said to me, "wait until I show you what the ladies in the ward made for your birthday" when I saw it, I broke down crying. I am so overwhelmed. On each square woman wrote a personal note to me. It took me so long to read them all because I cried so hard. I had no idea; so many women felt the way they do about me. I can never explain in words the feelings I felt as I read each one of them, every single one of these women have made such an impression on my life at one time or another. I survive some days because I want to be like these women, strong, worthy, incredible wives, mothers, and friends. How can I ever thank them, Not only for the time and effort it took to make this quilt but primarily because of the message behind it. I think everyone wants to feel loved and needed. Today I felt love. I felt the love from each message, and I know those words will give me strength as I read them when I feel down. Thank you, thank you.