SEES candy

 

FRIDAY, JANUARY 29, 2010

SEES Candy

Monday was chemo. I have been really sick, and my bones, breasts, and muscles ache. No matter how much I wish it away or pray for it to not be, I awake every morning hoping this is a horrible dream, and yet it is still part of my life I'm learning to embrace. 

Sometimes I reward myself with an extra-long bubble bath or a sweet treat. While I was at Mayo Clinic, I bought a SEES candy bar with toffee chips. I was so ready and excited to bite into it. When I put it to my lips, I dream of the smooth taste of Chocolate, one that only SEES can offer. (I am not a big chocolate eater) I was instantly disappointed, not because SEES didn't deliver the finest Chocolate, but because the CHEMO delivered the nastiest of tastes. I sometimes forget that Chemotherapy is doing its job on my body and my taste buds. I wish chemo would "give me a break." 

OH, how I wanted that Chocolate to taste remarkable, something I could rely on. Ha Ha, probably a good idea, and it didn't. If it worked, I might be getting hand-packed nuts and chews by the pound full.

Today I had an appointment in the cardiovascular department at Mayo. Lately, I have had some heart palpitations, so just to be safe, the doctor hooked my heart up to a monitor that I have to wear for one month. Then next week, I will go to Mayo Hospital for an MRI and echo. The monitor will record any unusual heartbeats and report them to my oncologist. I'm sure it's just a weird reaction to some of my medicines. I think my heart is the strongest organ in my body. I am not looking forward to one month of monitoring. The echo will show any blockages in the arteries and actual pictures of my heart and arteries, so there are no surprises.