Got Hair?

MONDAY, APRIL 12, 2010

Got Hair?

OK, this morning, I was looking in the 15x magnifier mirror I have in my bathroom, and guess what???? I have some hair growing in.... kinda more like peach fuzz, but still, it's starting to grow. Of course, I asked Eric, "do you see the hair growing on my head?" and he replied, "um.... yeah, sure... " I said, "it's there, I promise .... look in MY mirror" I love Eric ... funny guy!!!

I've been told that hair grows funky after chemo; I have always been a true blonde, but it looks pretty dark coming in, so we will see in a few months.
This must be the day to remind me of my nonexistent hair because on the way to the Mayo this morning, I pulled up behind this car that had a massive print on its back window that read GOT HAIR? I busted up laughing at the irony of this morning.

Losing my hair was one of the most devastating parts of this journey. We live in a world that cares about hair. I never realized how much I cared about my hair until I didn't have it anymore. I had a hard time coming to grips because I am vulnerable and needed to ask the Lord for strength to understand why this was happening to me. I even doubted if I was being heard, and then out of the blue, an answer would come and say to me, "Be still and know that I am God, rise up and listen to me. In my eyes, you are beautiful" I have come to understand that I am a divine daughter of Heavenly Father, that he will wrap his arms around me and comfort me when I am feeling discouraged. 

More times than I can ever remember before, I have knelt in quiet prayer and asked him to help me fight this battle and win. There have been times when I have felt small and insignificant during this journey, then he has answered my prayers, and he has calmed many storms in my heart that I thought I could not conquer. I will never be the same person, and I am stronger than I ever thought I could be. We all will have trials, temptations, and difficult times in our lives, without a doubt. It's part of His plan for us. We can't grow and learn unless we can overcome and know that HE can be our constant guide if we will let him. I am His beautiful daughter; with or without hair, he loves me.