Surgery Changed to Thursday, Oct 14th

 

TUESDAY, OCTOBER 12, 2010

Surgery Changed to Thursday, Oct. 14th

The woman who made a mistake at Mayo Clinic coding my surgery with my insurance company called me today to give a formal apology. I am grateful for her phone call today as I thought about it. Sometimes it's difficult to say you're sorry and admit you made a mistake. I told her that she was only human and we all make mistakes, but I did not want Dr. Kreymerman bumping someone or changing anyone else's surgery time because of what had happened to me. That is not fair to those patients. If they feel my anxiety, I would never want them to go through that. I just asked him to please add me at the end of a day when he can fit me in, and I was told that day will be this Thursday....just not sure of the time yet, sometime in the afternoon.

I had a good friend put this into perspective for me, Heavenly Father has been in charge from the beginning of my journey, and he still is. Although the anxiety I have been feeling is not really getting more manageable, there was a reason this happened the way that it did, and I will be prepared on Thursday. I'm ready to say good- rid dens to the expanders, you know, the ones that have caused bruising on my grandson's head every time he bonks them with his head, totally ready to say goodbye to the tightening that I constantly feel, and the rock-solid boobs have got to go, it's time.

So tonight, as I try to get some sleep, I thank my Heavenly Father for this day that I wouldn't have been able to spend with Haleigh, but because of the cancellation, I spent some quality time with her and Kayla and Recker. I thank Him for my family, who always show me, unconditional love. 

I love genuinely surrendering to the Lord, and I know again he will be with me during my surgery and after. His love never ceases to amaze me. How could that love be enough to help every one of His children? I love each one of my children but know that throughout their lives, I will not be able to be there for them through everything, not like the Lord can, so I hope that my kiddos have also learned to rely on Him. He will carry them on the days their mama or anyone else can't...He can always and will always hold you.

This is what happens when you have front-loading washing machines.....haha Recker having fun.