SATURDAY, DECEMBER 25, 2010
Christmas 2010
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| Breakfast, Puff Pancakes with Buttermilk Syrup |
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| Christmas Tree, Gifts, and waiting to get the phone call from Blake |
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| Tradition-Filibertos for Dinner |
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| We are all about easy food on Christmas. |
I have to admit it was so hard for me to hang up and say goodbye. I got teary-eyed, listening to my son softly whisper how much he loves me. (mama)
He expressed his knowledge of the Gospel of Jesus Christ. Blake told me the Lord has been watching over me this past year, and all the missionaries have prayed for me daily.
He said, "He is the only way, and I know He lives, mom." Now, as I sit alone pondering the things Blake shared with me today, my eyes are red and watering. It will be another year and a half before I get his big hugs. Blake has struggled with his knowledge of the Gospel and if the Lord is real. Hearing him talk about Christ and bearing his testimony so quickly made me so happy.
Finding my way through this test of faith, sometimes I have felt like my faith is not quite enough. Maybe the Lord is still waiting on me to prove something to him. I have failed so many times, and when I have reached the edge of darkness, days like today come along, and I realize that he magnifies what I can't always give.
I, too, know He Lives. Too many times, He has reached down and lifted me up, He is my hope, and with every step and breath I take, I KNOW HE LIVES. I can never deny that He is my strength, and He anchors me down on days when I think I could fly away.
The Lord has a purpose for each one of His children. I am beginning to understand mine; it's quite a responsibility once revealed through His Spirit. Once you know, then time to listen with your heart and live it, no looking back. There will always be fears, but I've learned that you must let them go; just hold on to the burning desire you have to learn from your journey. He will let your faith grow. He will help you search your soul and give you the strength you need.
2 COMMENTS:
Looks like you had a wonderful Christmas. Those puff pancakes made me hungry! I bet I know the name of that wise friend of yours that says "later" instead of "goodbye" - she's right, ya know? It's never goodbye, never. I'm happy you spoke to your son. What a Christmas gift that was. I know your heart is sad, but remember this too, you KNOW where he is, you KNOW what he's doing, and every day that he's away is closer to him being home. Many moms kiss their sons and never see them again, so consider yourself blessed. You are blessed. Love you.
Thinking of you on your Dr. M. appointment day.